Nothing to Lose

For some reason I have always reserved prayer for times when I needed to ask for something I deemed worthy of prayer. To me, "worthy of prayer" mean it was something very important, nothing foolish. I'm not sure why. I guess I always felt selfish and presumptuous asking God for little things like getting through an exam or helping me to make work on time. In a way it's similar to asking my parents for something as a child. Sometimes we don't ask for things like money for ice cream in case the ice cream truck comes because we figure we can't be so lucky as to get money every single time we ask. This all reminds me of this one day when I was just a child. My dad brought me to the pet store as we often went to buy multiple supplies for our zoo at home! I saw this adorable baby guinea pig. She was white with grey spots and her hair was still soft, not so hoarse like when they're older. Her little wet pink nose twitted here and and there. I don't think I gave it a thought before blurting, "Can we get that guinea pig? I want her." I didn't even consider that there's no way we could make an addition to the pets at home and you know what? He actually bought it! I'm not even sure I expected it, I was too caught up in the cuteness to think that he would actually say yes. We had our long haired, grey guinea pig Harry at home anyway! But sure enough, he actually bought it! That said, I believe we think way too much about whether or not we should ask God for help in times of need. I think when you need something, anything at all, even a nudge in the morning if you're not good at getting up, you should just ask God. What do you have to lose? Instead of thinking about if your question is selfish or if the discussion you'd like to have with God is worth it we should be caught up in the moment and go ahead and just speak to Him. He wants us to. He is our Father. He loves us and wants to help and, better yet, he CAN help!

Yesterday, I finally opened up to the idea that there is no discussion or question unworthy. God will discuss anything with us. I was feeling alright in the morning. I'd been slowly getting over a cold the days prior but felt enough energy to go to the gym. I went and came home and had breakfast and I started to get a migraine, a common occurrence for me. I took medicine and throughout the day got worse to the point of vomiting. Mind you, this is all while taking care of my daughter while my husband's at work. She too has been sick and cranky the past week or so. So here it is, late afternoon and I can't focus on caring for her any longer. I decide to make a "bed" between the living room and dining room in order to barricade her in the living room in case this lasts longer than I can imagine. I give her juice, water and snacks and I lay down. The pain is so horrific that I just start crying and, with no other hope, I just prayed. I asked God to please look out for Addison and to give me the strength to get through this so I can focus my attention to her, to just relief me. At one point my husband texted me and I could not even focus enough to write to him that I'm not doing well. 10 minutes later, I was able to sit up and open my eyes and everything was gone. Migraine gone, not even a headache left over, nothing. Nausea was gone as well, not even a lump in my throat. I was so overwhelmed that I open the blinds and looked out the window for a trace of Him, I'm not sure what I was looking for but I started crying and thanking God. I really needed Him and he helped me. God is all around, there is never a need to look for Him. He's there whenever you need Him.